About Me

Sick vs Not Sick

Well i'm writing this because i'm sick now.

Haiz........

Well its suffering to be sick.

So many medicine need to take.

Feel so weak.

Can't eat what you want.

No mood in doing anything.

Laughed by friends because of being sick.

Well not being sick... You can eat what you want.

Feel superior because not sick.

No pils to eat.

Do not need to suffer.

But that's not the point.

If you are not sick for a long time, the next time if you get sick it will take a longer time for you to recover.

You may say "choi".

Its the truth because you immune system is not ready to attact the virus.

This is because your immune system has not recognize the virus foe a long time and did not produce the immunity towards the virus.

So being sick has advantages too.

I still choose to be in a relationship

Why do I choose to be in a relationship?

Is it because of lust or love?

Hmm…

Let’s ponder on these two major questions before we proceed.

Well it is hard to explain.

When you love a person there is usually no particular reason why you love him/her.

Therefore, it is not lust but love.

You must know that feelings of love cannot be played with.

This main reason is that cuts and wounds can heal in a short time however hurt emotion/feelings take a long time to heal.

Well the main reason why I say that I choose to be in a relationship is that I know the feeling of being love and the feeling of loving someone. It’s the happiness and satisfaction when you make a person feel so happy that words can’t explain.

I just have 3 wishes.

1^st wish: Long lasting love.

2^nd wish: This relationship will end with marriage.

3^rd wish: Blessing from the people. (parents, relative, friends and etc)

These are the 3 main wishes I want.

I really hope that these wishes will come true in the future.

Single vs Relationship

Single

Advantages:

Have all the freedom in the world.

Able to meet anyone you want. No boundaries.

No need to think or care of how people think about you.

No worries.

Happy go lucky lifestyle.

No problem going out with guys/girls.

No strings attached.

Be as wild as you want to be.

Disadvantages:

May feel lonely when friends are no around.

Need to find people to chat with.

Don’t have the feeling of being loved.

Don’t have the feeling of being cared.

Don’t have someone to share your darkest secret with.

Nobody to stand beside to support you and share your up and downs.

Relationship

Advantages:

Have the feeling of being loved.

Somebody special to care about you.

A person to share your life with.

Able to talk about anything, no matter happy or sad.

Lifestyle like a flower blossoming (most of the time).

Somebody that will always be there to support you.

A person that is honest in giving their opinion.

Someone you can turn to for advice.

Disadvantages:

Have to keep a distance.

Need to think about your other half feelings.

Worries whether big or small will always be there.

Have to change yourself to make your other half happy.

Try your best to make sure that you do not hurt him/her.

Make sure that your conversation with people does not go over the boundaries.

Can see but not touch.

There are many other advantages and disadvantages whether you are single or in a relationship.

The points stated above are based on my opinion.

So it depends on your perspective hove you look at this topic.

Trust

What is trust?

What do you understand about trust?

How should we define trust?

How do we obtain trust?

When do we trust someone?

Who do we really trust?

Trust is defined as a firm belief in someone or something.

In my opinion, trust is a belief that does not need to be question about.

For example, if you believe in someone, do you need to know all the details where the person is or what is he/she doing and etc?

Well if a person trusts me I would like the person not to question me about the details.

My principle is that I would tell you something when I think it is the right time. You do not need to go underground to find out things.

People who I trust are the people who really understand me. I don't mind they give advice but do not be repetitive. A person who observes what I do and know in their heart that I have a valid reason doing so. A person who does not question me about things that happen but just merely trusts in me. A person who gives me freedom to make my own choice whether it is good or it is a mistake. A person who will help me stand up again when I fall. A person who will believe that I’m able settle things by my own self unless I ask for help. A person who does not talk bad behind of me or even in front of me even if it is the common norm.

Anyway the main point is that trust me. I'm not a little girl anymore. I have grown wings to fly. If you do not let me fly, I'll never learn how to fly. I want to see the world, gain knowledge and learn new things on my own. So just trust me.

A person will gain my trust when I'm able to tell her my darkest and innermost secret. The communication between me and that person will be different. It seems like there will be no end. The conversation will be about anything and everything that has happen or plans in the future.

To gain my trust is not easy.

To lose it just takes a blink of an eye.

When you lose my trust, I'll not tell you stuff that are private anymore. You will know when I do not trust you.

It will take a long long time before I'm able to trust you again.

This is what I think trust is all about.

So if you love a person, trust him/her will all of your heart.

But remember to pray for him/her silently that all will go well.

What a wacky morning!

So many funny and unexpected things that happen.

Unbelievable!

It all started by putting my skype on skypeme mode.

At the first it was ok.

Then there was a flood of people wanting to chat with me.

Still acceptable.

Some were ok. Some were really sick in the head.

Where did the sex topic come from?

I did not say anything about sex at all.

What is this?

Worse still.

Since when can my picture and voice make people get high?

Arghhh...

Now only I realize there are so many types of people in the world.

Some are nice.

Some are crazy.

Some want to make friends.

Some want to learn english

Some want online sex.

This really open my eyes.

So I learn that if I want to put my skype on skypeme mode, I must be prepared to meet all kinds of people.

I also must make sure that I know how to chat with the "right in mind" people.

This is a really a learning experience.

It's confusing

There are so many things to think about.

So many things that I need to plan.

Need to think about other people.

Help them solve their problems.

If I am unable to this my heart seems uneasy.

Why is this so?

Is there a problem?

What’s wrong is there to be in a relationship?

Isn’t it my choice to choose who my friends are?

Don’t I have the right to choose who I love?

There are so many questions running through my head.

But it seems there are no answers yet.

I just don’t understand why my parents need to control my life whether it is my circle of friends or my love life.

I am not your little girl anymore.

I have grown up.

I want to make my own decision and learn from my own mistakes.

If you protect me to much I will be too naïf.

Give me a chance to prove that I can make right decisions.

It’s my life to live.

It’s the path I choose to walk.

It’s my choice I make.

It’s my decision I believe.

It’s my stand I keep.

It’s my principle I want.

Love n Relationship

What is love?

Is it just the feeling?

It is the look of someone handsome/pretty?

Is it a person say that he/she love you?

These is the most common answer why people are love.

How do I define love.

Love is a feeling that cannot be expressed with words.

You will do the best you can to make the person know that you love him.

You will miss and think of the person all the time.

I really mean all the time. For example you will think of the person the 1st thing when you wake up in the morning.

Loving a person does not depend on appreance or background.

It really depends on the heart.

Heart is were the feeling of love comes from.

With a pure heart your love will blossom like the flower in spring and be romantic like the leaves falling in autumn.

Now what is relationship?

Is it just a friendship?

A trend nowadays?

A boy girl relationship?

Well my defination of relationship is when a girl or guy wants to be more than friends.This involves two parties.

In this type of relationship, both parties need to understand each other.

The most important things is communication.

You must think of the other person more than yourself and make sure that what you do will not destroy the relationship or misunderstanding that will occur.

Respect, trust and honesty is also an important element.

To ensure that a relationship is stable you must also learn give and take. Learn to listen to other people opinion. You may never know that other poeple opinion may be a better suggestion compare to your own.

To discover more you will need to use your six sense. Just kidding.

You will nned to be in a relationship and in love to understand more what this two words really mean.

"Love and relationship goes hand in hand"

"Communication and respect also goes hand in hand"

In my opinion, if you are able to master these elements your love relationship will be able to go far.

So wish all the best for all those in a "love" relationship.

Relief

My heart is relief.

At last I really know that my jie jie ia able to move on.

I was very worried about her.

However seeing her go through this type of rejection in her life, I now understand the feeling of being rejected even though I have not been rejected before.

It hurts a lot if you are being rejected by a person you love because he can not return you the favour.

It breaks my heart to see somebody suffer so much.

But now I'm very "PROUD" of her.

She is now able to step out of this dilemma.

Just in one day she is able to stand on her feet again and move forward.

From her experience I have learned a lot.

I'll always be there to support you jie jie.

Happenings in Year 3 Sem 1 (2007)

Many things has happened in my life.

It started out normal.

Then sadness.

Now happiness.

Wow! So many emotions in just a short time.

I hope this emotion and feeling of happiness will never end.

I wish the moment will stop.

I will treasure this moment in my heart.

I will cherish the moment and time with the person I love.

The past memories will always be memories.

I will only choose to remember the happy moments.

The sad memories will be a leason for me to learn from so that I won't make the same mistake.

So take each step slowly and move on in life.

Learning is is lifelong process.

So be happy always.